See we all have data generators in our life. Okay, the world, the job you have, the family and relationships you have, they all generate data around which we have beliefs for each one of those. But sometimes we have such turbulent relationship with those data generators. That we are always in a state of uncertainty around things that might happen. Mostly it is negative, and that causes very very high entropy. And the topic related to it never closes out in our head. It keeps reappearing in our passive thoughts. It keeps reappearing in our dreams, and it becomes a source of anxiety and constant thinking. And we keep wanting to interact with it because there is high entropy. We are seeking some information that will take us to low entropy so that we can have some belief regarding safety. So no matter what the generator is, what you are always seeking is belief that are low entropy in nature. We don’t want uncertainty and especially one which sounds negative

For example, right now I am working like ten to twelve hours per day, and I have such fucking toxic relationship with this job that always think I might mess up or I am messing up that I am always having a relationship with this data generator that okay I have people about. Me in the chain of command, and I’m messing up. That means inevitably I’m going to get reprimanded, and that creates uncertainty and high entropy because hey, when is that going to happen? Is it? So it’s like I’m always seeking information to related to my work because even in my sleep I’m trying to see figure out if I’m messing up or not. So basically what I’m saying is I need to fix my relationship with my work.

Before this, I had high entropy relationships with a lot of things, and they did have a similar pattern that they might reappear in your dreams, they might reappear in your thoughts. But this is the first time I have been able to identify the mechanism that there are data generators, there is beliefs and relations with it, and if those are not positive, then you are screwed. So first things first, I have to change my belief about my work that hey, come on, I am fucking Atharv Ketkar and I am competent. It’s not like I’m gonna click a keyboard key and asteroid is going to hit Earth. That is never going to happen. I’m minscule in terms of how much I can mess up. Okay, so I should just be confident and have a better relationship with this data generator.

And see, you gotta be delusionally positive. I don’t think you are going to always find communications or information in world that is going to help you create low entropy. It is your own responsibility. And frankly speaking, world is full of conflicting interests, and the information or communications they might give you might be from their own. Point of interest. Like you usually don’t want to make the new joiner to a pity and confident. You wanna keep them on there too so that they keep learning. But on the other hand, if you have a bad relationship with the job and the entropy around it, then that is going to do numbers on you. So I think sometimes you just got to fucking ignore everything and believe you are the best, you are doing well, and yeah, I think that’s what comes out out of it.

So, if your que to be safe is that wanting clear signals and communication from the world and the data generator that you are doing fine and you are safe, then you may never have it. You have to manufacture it yourself. You have to manufacture that certainty yourself. You have to be delusionally positive. Because there is a famous Kanye West quote that says. If you try to be right at everything in your life, then your whole life is a test. And the most amount of stress you had during your school was during tests. So I think you got a branch out from reality from this, or maybe who knows this is actual reality, your of you what you think might be actually true instead of what everything else in the world is saying. Maybe yes, you only know yourself enough.

I guess that makes us conclude that you got a manufacture your own low entropy man. The world is always freaking out. There are going to be conflicts, wars, natural disasters, a shit ton of bad things. If you let the world Control the feeling of when you get to feel low entropy and safety, then you are fucking cooked. I think my dreams, the recurring thoughts are going away now.

You gotta look at everything happening around you and in the world and still come to the conclusion, hey, I’m fine. Entropy is low, no loops are open, I am doing fucking fine.

The default is extraordinarily safe and thriving until proven otherwise in an extremely overwhelming fashion, in a recurring amount of times. And even if it proves the wrong thing, I still say pen sound because I can always move on to the next thing.